Melissa Rauch is pregnant with her first child after suffering a miscarriage, with the Big Bang Theory star sharing the news in a moving essay for Glamour.
Rauch shared that she and husband Winston are expecting their first child this fall.
"Here is the only statement regarding my pregnancy that doesn't make me feel like a complete fraud: 'Melissa is expecting her first child. She is extremely overjoyed, but if she's being honest, due to the fact that she had a miscarriage the last time she was pregnant, she's pretty much terrified at the moment that it will happen again,' " Rauch began.
"She feels weird even announcing this at all, and would rather wait until her child heads off to college to tell anyone, but she figures she should probably share this news before someone sees her waddling around with her mid-section protruding and announces it first," she added.
Rauch went on to share the sadness and jealousy she felt while going through fertility struggles, noting that she wanted to share her own journey in the hope that she could help someone else who might be going through something similar. She also detailed her miscarriage, calling it one of the most "profound sorrows" she has ever felt.
"The image of our baby on the ultrasound monitor—without movement, without a heartbeat—after we had seen that same little heart healthy and flickering just two weeks prior completely blindsided us and haunts me to this day," she wrote.
"What I realized, though, is that because this kind of loss is not openly talked about nearly as much as it should be, there really is no template for how to process these emotions," Rauch continued. "You're not necessarily going to a funeral or taking time off from work to mourn, but that doesn't change the fact that something precious has been unexpectedly taken from your life."
Rauch shared that she was able to begin healing by accepting what had happened, acknowledging that she needed to move forward. She concluded her letter by urging other women who have gone through a similar experience to "be kind" to themselves.
"All I really know for sure is that this experience has changed me forever. I know it's made me grateful for every moment of my current pregnancy, and I hope it will make me a better mother in some capacity when I can finally hold the child that has been in my heart in my arms," she wrote.
"So, to all the women out there who are dealing with fertility issues, have gone through a miscarriage or are going through the pain of it currently, allow me to leave you with this message: You are not alone. And, it is perfectly OK to not be OK right now," she concluded.0comments
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