Watch: JonBenet Ramsey's Father Speaks Out: "We Lost Our Child, That's What Mattered"

In a sneak peek of the highly anticipated A&E documentary, The Killing of JonBenét: The Truth Uncovered, John Ramsey discusses some of the horrible reality he and his family faced in the aftermath of the well-known murder, E! Online reports.

"Death would've been a welcome relief from the pain and agony I felt. Life is difficult to go on with. The burden is almost too heavy."

He goes into detail about how different life became after the 6-year-old was stolen from their lives over two decades ago,

"We keep our curtains closed. Our doors and windows are locked. Going anywhere is a major organized and planned operation. We get people coming to the door claiming to have information that can be helpful in the case. They're tabloid reporters."

The Ramsey's had to remove all televisions and newspapers from their home while the outside world accused him of having something to do with the awful loss, but Ramsey said that was the least of his sorrows,


"It was hard to not see that kind of stuff, but it didn't matter. We lost our child. That's what mattered."