Oscars 2020: Eminem Reveals Why He Skipped 2003 Ceremony Where 'Lose Yourself' Won

Eminem's surprise performance at the Oscars on Sunday night was 17 years in the making, as he missed the 75th Academy Awards back in 2003, when "Lose Yourself" earned the award for Best Original Song. In a post-show interview, the rapper explained why he missed the show, which would have given him a chance to receive an award from Barbra Streisand. Eminem later tweeted the clip from 2003, showing co-writer Luis Resto picking up the award in his stead.

The rapper told Variety he missed the show back in 2003 because he never thought the 8 Mile song would win an Oscar. After all, it was up against stiff competition. U2's "The Hands That Built America" from Gangs of New York, Paul Simon's "Father and Daughter" from The Wild Thornberrys Movie, "Burn It Blue" form Frida and "I Move On" from that year's Best Picture winner Chicago were also nominated.

"I kinda figured maybe since I didn't get a chance to do it at the time, maybe it would be cool," Eminem said when asked how the surprise performance happened. "Back then, I never even thought that I had a chance to win, and we had just performed 'Lose Yourself' on the Grammys with the Roots a couple of weeks before the Oscars, so we didn't think it was a good idea. And also, back at that time, the younger me didn't really feel like a show like that would understand me."

"But then when I found out I won, 'That's crazy!'" Eminem continued. "That to me shows how authentic and real that award is — when you don't show up and you still win. That makes it very real to me."

He went on to admit he was disappointed he missed the Oscars in 2003 and was "blown back" by his win.

"I don't even think I understood back then that you could get an Oscar for a song, and I remember being kinda confused about why I was even up for one, because as a kid with the Oscars, it was like a vacuum," he said, adding that it would have been "crazy" to accept an award from Streisand.

Eminem said he likely spent the night of the 2003 Oscars at home with his daughter, Hailie Jade Mathers. He also shot down rumors he refused to perform a censored version of "Lose Yourself."

While "Lose Yourself" has gone on to become Eminem's signature song and 8 Mile helped cement his status as a star, he never acted in a movie again, aside from shot appearances as himself in movies and TV shows. He told Variety he might be interested in acting again, "if the right script comes along and it's something that fits with my schedule."

As for 8 Mile, Eminem said he mostly enjoyed making the semi-autobiographical film.

"There was a lot of stuff that was not, um... It was a lot of work, and it being my first film I was not really expecting that," he explained. "And it's tough when you've got to be on someone else's schedule, with the way that I work. But yeah, I'm certainly glad that I did it, and there were parts that were definitely fun, it was just a lot."


Eminem's most recent album, Music to be Murdered By, was released just last month without any prior notice, just like his 2020 Oscars appearance.

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